Amon Xiong

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I wish I could say the reason I dropped out of University was to follow my dreams.
Here I will share with you the truth and critical learnings I’ve discovered and learned. But before this, allow me to provide you with a little back story.

Throughout my teen years, I dabbled in film and music editing, photography, and sketching, but never allowed them to grow into a passion. I admit I never had the grit to. Once I found something to no longer be fun, I would lose interest quickly and move on. I later learned a powerful lesson on how important it is when approached with these hurdles.

What is recorded, is maintained.

I currently work as an Associate Network Engineer (it is just a job title) at the age of 24, committed to a Blog, have taken photography more seriously, and have set goals for myself by writing them down.

What is recorded, is maintained.

I admit I never guessed I’d be working this job at this age when I was in college, which were years 11 and 12 where I’m from.

I talked about being honest with yourself in a previous post where being aware allows you to be present with your thoughts and emotions. As thoughts come from the mind, emotions come from the heart.
I never did pay much attention to the consequences of my thoughts previously which led me to take actions with no real purpose. In these instances, it prevented me from reaching my true potential because I did not have the self-awareness to allow my emotions to remind me of the reasons why I am doing it, to correct the fear within my thoughts.
The fear that I am not good enough when things get too hard. The fear that I will make a fool out of myself if I continued on a path less taken on.

I was lost and confused, and so decided I wasn’t going to be pursuing a bachelor’s degree in Architecture. Everything I had worked on during my college years up to that moment, was towards becoming an Architect.

The consequences of my actions had caught up to me.

This leads me to the truth as to why I dropped out. It’s because I was unsure but at the same time confident of myself. Let me explain.
I was unsure if being an Architect was for me, or in actuality if the traditional line of education was for me.
What I was confident about was the fact that I wanted freedom, but had no clue how I would attain this freedom I craved for. And so I delved into self-discovery and learned many things about myself and what I needed to do. Here are what I’ve learned and am working to improve and make a reality.

Learn to love and put yourself first.
Everything is a decision, not a reaction.
Have more than one income stream.
Family will always be there for you.
The first step is always the hardest.
Be clear on the outcome.

You can find the poem that inspired this here.

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